In the air tonight.

"Meet me in outer space/I will hold you close, if you're afraid of heights/I need you to see this place, it might be the only way/That I can show you how, it feels to be inside of you/How do you it, make me feel like I do/How do you do it, it’s better than I ever knew/How do you do it, make me feel like I do"--Brandon Boyd (Incubus), "Stellar"

"Water Dimmer: To correct a water element that is too active; that is, when you're overwhelmed with emotion, either ground yourself with the earth amplifier or open up to more rational energy with the air amplifier. Focusing on another element will allow you to swim out of deeper waters into a more manageable flow."--Barrie Dolnick, The Executive Mystic

L'Ailee's sleeping contentedly upstairs, and once again I'm not (don't wonder about me; insomnia's been a thing I've dealt with since I was little-bitty), and I just realized something.

I made a CD mix that I titled "Throw Your Feet In the Air Like You Just Don't Care", after a smart-assed play on the usual hip-hop concert patter about arms that I made on the Sweet Potato Queens' Message Board of Love. This is the lineup:

1. Flutter, Bonobo
2. Breakadawn, De La Soul
3. Speed of Sound, Coldplay
4. Supersonic, Oasis
5. Kinky Afro, the Happy Mondays
6. The Only One I Know, Charlatans UK
7. Aero Zeppelin, Nirvana
8. Beautiful Day, U2
9. Just Like Heaven, the Cure
10. Stellar, Incubus
11. All the Way to Reno, REM
12. Possession, Sarah McLachlan
13. Chariots of Fire, N.E.R.D.

Now, she liked it a lot. We made out like we were kids again, and it worked just the way I hoped, and it was good and all that. That's all you need to know, and probably all you want as well.

But I realized something.

In most of these songs, the lyrics refer to the sky, air, birds, flying, the stars, space...even Sarah McLachlan's character promises, "I'll take your breath away."

And I put them together to get a woman whom I refer to as L'Ailee, French for Winged Woman, because of her gymnastics prowess and Matrix-like fighting ability, in the mood.

One who loves bats, who was impressed by a picture of bats that I gave her for her birthday, and who has bats tattooed onto her.

I am such a classic water element-ruled person, and since she's a Cancer/Leo cusp, I figured that what I had found in her was someone who was different-but-complementary, a blend of fire and water.

I realize tonight just what sort of energy she possesses, and just what she imbues my life and spirit with. And all I needed was a spiritual two-by-four over my head to get it.

And I thought I wasn't gonna get real spiritual this Lammas night, and that my making bread and thanking the Gods and elements over dinner were going to be my only acts of worship on this Sabbat. Amazing how the Gods and the Elementals subtly whisper and remind me, "We're *here*, you can't ignore us just because you're in the big city, you've still gotta pay attention."

Or maybe it's just that good air energy I've come to love, if still not know entirely, interacting with my water energy to make something interesting again...

Or maybe I just need to sleep.