I've always had a Buddha belly. But the pregnancy-like distension caused by having a shitload of fibroids made it huge last year, and so did being able to medicate myself with food and not being able to exercise. So now I'm losing weight, thanks to regular exercise (thank you, L'Ailee) and eating like I have some sense and, oh yes, learning that I have an underactive thyroid and being prescribed medication for it. And now I see that I'm getting some loose skin around my stomach. I want to lose more weight, and think I can between now and the holidays, but I'm afraid I'll look like my midsection's made of melted wax if I do.
Tonight I asked L'Ailee what she'd think of my getting the excess skin cut off. My insurance plan might cover most of it. And unlike other ideas that involve elective surgery that have crossed my mind, she seemed to think this one was a good one. "You don't have to if you don't want to, but you're getting good abs underneath," she said. "I can understand why you wouldn't want too much surgery, but..."
"You wouldn't be upset if I got this one," I finished.
"No, I wouldn't. But get it or don't get it, it's the same to me."
"Look, if you mean yes, say yes!"
Her eyes flashed. "What, do you want me to say you're ugly and you must have it?! No, I'm not going to say that! I don't think that! Yes if you want it and you can have it, no if you don't or you can't!" she exclaimed. "God, I am too tired for this!"
So I let it simmer down and talked of other things until she went upstairs to bed.
And I don't even know what the name of the surgery is called so I can price it and learn about the possible complications, only that Richard Hatch had it after he lost all that weight on Survivor and some woman on the Swan whose midsection looked really bad got it.
I got us into a fight on about the last day of our periods, after a relatively and almost freakishly calm week considering what week it is, over something I saw on reality shows. I highlighted something wrong with my body and possibly my mind, and it may be for nothing if insurance can't cover it the way I hope or the complications outweigh the benefits.
Yep, I'm sure proud of myself.