Tuesday, January 31, 2006

I refuse to be bothered by this.

How quickly one's mood can change from silly to contemplative.

I have mentioned Ex-Boy and how he got upset because I couldn't stay pregnant.

Well, got an e-mail from an Orlando friend, who stayed friends with us both. He's got another girlfriend now (YAY!) And she's pregnant. And she's staying pregnant.

Better her than me...I know I'm lucky...better her than me...I know I'm lucky...I will repeat as long as necessary.

It's not that I even want this, or don't want them to have it, it's just that about three years ago, I wanted it very badly and it got ripped away from me.

7 comments:

Christine said...

Yeah...I can see the sting there...

(((((hugs to you))))))

Traci said...

Ouch. I'm sorry sweetie. It hurts alot I'm sure...and it's ok to acknowledge it too. I'm proud of you for being able to do it. Peace.

alan said...

If I could reach through this magic window and hug you I would...

alan

Writer Mom said...

...and I'd be right behind Alan. It'd be one big 'hi, nice to meet you,' sort of hug.

Blogzie said...

It's okay to be bothered by it.

Just for a little while.

And then continue to shampoo, rinse, repeat...

Love and hugs to you.

xoxox

The Fat Lady Sings said...

I'm so sorry, my dear. That's terrible. I know it really doesn't help - but at least you are surrounded by love. Sometimes looking at what's wonderful in a life can counter what hurt.

www.kimmy.cc said...

That is a great song, and so very true.

If you had stayed pregnant, I would bet to think you would be miserable in a relationship that denied who you are.

Small blessings